So this is it

 I've been putting this off for a long time. A very long time. I need to lose weight. A substantial amount of weight, actually. A humans worth of weight. I am as big as two people. After gaining 123 pounds with my first daughter, aand 86 with my second, I'm weighing in at 6', and 330 pounds, I have literally an entire human worth of weight to lose. Holy shit. I didn't used to always be heavy, but pregnancy, PCOS, and laziness have kicked my ass.

Starting the day after tomorrow, all forms of legged-animal protein is off my diet. I say legged, because I'm going to still consume fish, but in small quantities. It's everything else that I'm going to cut out - although, I don't eat a large amount of meat as it is. However, when I do, it's in fairly large amounts. I'm going to be replacing my protein with veggies. This isn't new to me, however it's never been long term. This time, it's going to be long term. 

I was approved for gastric bypass, once I have weight stability. This means for at least 2 months I need weight loss, or no movement. Not gain. Thus, where the vegetarianism comes in. Fruited. Veggies. Whole grains. Limited dairy. Some eggs. That's about it.

Being this heavy is embarrassing. I'm fortunate enough to be tall like an ogre, but that still doesn't change anything. I'm only a size 16, because in fairness, a lot of my weight is muscle - but again, those are all still just excuses. So I'm done with them. I'm going back to being a vegetarian, and hitting up the YMCA, and am going to get stable so I can get bypass. I wouldn't be just jumping to bypass, except that I've already been doing just about everything under the sun to lose this weight, but I can't. This crazy diet is just to keep me stable. 

Onwards shopping list.